{"id":11463,"date":"2020-10-13T13:16:20","date_gmt":"2020-10-13T17:16:20","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/briwebapp.net\/cfgxfm\/?p=11463"},"modified":"2020-10-13T13:16:20","modified_gmt":"2020-10-13T17:16:20","slug":"the-view-from-here-this-is-49","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/briwebapp.net\/cfgxfm\/blogs\/afternoons\/2020\/10\/the-view-from-here-this-is-49\/","title":{"rendered":"The View From Here &#8211; This Is 49"},"content":{"rendered":"<p>How do you feel about birthdays?\u00a0 I turned 49 on Saturday.\u00a0 With my husband and kids, and my brother and niece.\u00a0 With cake and a campfire, surrounded by beautiful fall colours and lots of love from my family.<\/p>\n<p>I keep staring at the number 49 and wondering if I should feel any different.<\/p>\n<p>Someone joked &#8220;a year away from the worst year&#8221;.\u00a0 \u00a0Someone else said a year away from a mid-life crisis.<\/p>\n<p>I don&#8217;t feel &#8220;old&#8221; yet.\u00a0 Not even with my grey hair that has grown in.<\/p>\n<p>We were camping this weekend, and as we celebrated my birthday and Thanksgiving I thought about age.\u00a0 \u00a0When I<a href=\"https:\/\/foxfm.com\/blogs\/afternoons\/2019\/11\/6547\/\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\"> first started letting my greys take over<\/a> &#8211; (as I shared in the blogs)\u00a0 it was very freeing.\u00a0 I embraced it.\u00a0 I loved it. I&#8217;ve had so many compliments on my grey hair.<\/p>\n<p>When the pandemic hit, and hair salons were closed, a lot more women stepped up and did the same thing.<\/p>\n<p>Now, as I look back on my years and my old me pictures &#8211; I miss that colour.\u00a0 I miss the feeling of colouring my hair and enjoying the change.\u00a0 Feeling young.\u00a0 \u00a0So &#8211; after a year of change &#8211; I&#8217;m rethinking it.\u00a0 I&#8217;ve had a box of colour in my closet since the pandemic hit and have been considering it for months.\u00a0 Every time I go for the box, I remind myself of just how long it took to get to where I am.\u00a0 It&#8217;s not an easy process. So I stop.<\/p>\n<p>Then, when I saw headlines this weekend &#8211; <a href=\"https:\/\/www.foxnews.com\/entertainment\/sharon-osbourne-dyes-hair-red-68th-birthday\" target=\"_blank\" rel=\"noopener\">Sharon Osborne doing the same thing<\/a>\u00a0&#8211; after going grey and embracing it, she saw herself in the mirror, thought she looked like Gramma Clampett, and after celebrating her 68th birthday -decided to go back to being a red head.<\/p>\n<p>I know age is just a number.\u00a0 I don&#8217;t want to look like I&#8217;m trying too hard to be young or trying to hard to be someone I&#8217;m not.<\/p>\n<p>My husband says &#8220;be yourself &#8211; don&#8217;t let anyone tell you what to do&#8221;.\u00a0 \u00a0Age is just a number.\u00a0 It&#8217;s a mindset.\u00a0 It&#8217;s about how you feel.<\/p>\n<p>49.\u00a0 It feels like I was just in school.\u00a0 It feels like not long ago we thought 49 was ancient.\u00a0 I don&#8217;t feel ancient.\u00a0 In many ways I feel like I&#8217;m really just discovering who I&#8217;m supposed to be.<\/p>\n<p>Each day feels more special.\u00a0 I&#8217;m so much more aware at 49 that life is short and it goes way too fast.\u00a0 Each day that passes is a reminder that we have to make the most of it because our days are all numbered.\u00a0 Nobody is guaranteed tomorrow.<\/p>\n<p>I look back and realize how much time I wasted waiting for something.\u00a0 Waiting til I was out of school.\u00a0 Waiting to be an adult.\u00a0 Waiting to be married.\u00a0 Waiting for the weekend.\u00a0 Waiting.<\/p>\n<p>If we spend our time waiting, we are missing out.\u00a0 We aren&#8217;t living in the moment.\u00a0 I&#8217;ve started trying hard to practice living in the moment.<\/p>\n<p>I feel more than ever I&#8217;m embracing each day as the gift it is.\u00a0 I want to do everything.\u00a0 \u00a0I want to try new things.\u00a0 \u00a0I want everyone around me to know they matter.<\/p>\n<p>I get really excited about birthdays, if you haven&#8217;t noticed. (smile).\u00a0 \u00a0Better than New Years.<\/p>\n<p>It&#8217;s a new start.\u00a0 It&#8217;s reflection.\u00a0 It&#8217;s taking inventory on your life.\u00a0 Being aware of who you are and what matters.<\/p>\n<p>More and more it&#8217;s about simple things.\u00a0 Less drama.\u00a0 More love.\u00a0 Celebrating the everyday.<\/p>\n<p>I&#8217;m excited for what&#8217;s to come this year.\u00a0 To finish off my 40&#8217;s.\u00a0 \u00a0Maybe with a lovely shade of red to cover my greys. (smile)<\/p>\n<p>Like the &#8220;old&#8221; me had on the left (smile)<\/p>\n<p><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone  wp-image-11467\" src=\"https:\/\/storage.briwebapp.net\/2020\/10\/9ba3d2e3-hair-e1602609279732.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"311\" height=\"388\" \/>\u00a0\u00a0<div class=\"one_half\">&#8230;<\/div><img loading=\"lazy\" decoding=\"async\" class=\"alignnone  wp-image-11466\" src=\"https:\/\/storage.briwebapp.net\/2020\/10\/60951c9f-49-hair-e1602609207379.jpg\" alt=\"\" width=\"322\" height=\"393\" \/><\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n<p>&nbsp;<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"How do you feel about birthdays?\u00a0 I turned 49 on Saturday.\u00a0 With my husband and kids, and my brother and niece.\u00a0 With cake and a campfire, surrounded by beautiful fall colours and lots of love from my family. I keep staring at the number 49 and wondering if I should feel any different. 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