The View From Here – A Little Blurry Today Through The Tears

It’s been a tough day.  A really tough day.  So I took a moment to myself to sit in the car and have a good cry.  And I feel better for it.

In the mornings, I go for a drive.  To get “ready” for the workday.  To create some sort of separation between home and work.  It’s hard when you work at home.  You need some sort of transition.

Today, I took an extra long drive.  I listened to a few sad songs.  I thought about our world.  I thought about our kids.  I thought about people who are dealing with loss of family, jobs, money.

I thought about those close to me who are wondering how they are going to make it through.

I thought about my youngest, ready to leave elementary school behind.  The thought that she will not return to that elementary school is crushing.   I’m sad for her and all the other students who just wanted to feel celebrated.

So today, as I got back home, I parked my car and sat in the driveway.  Feeling overwhelmed with it all.  Not being able to fix this for my daughter.  Not being able to do enough.  Not feeling strong enough.

Taking care of yourself is important.  Giving yourself time to feel all those emotions and let it go is good for you.  No shame in it.

So if you need to take a break and sit in your car and have a good cry – you aren’t alone, and it’s okay.  It’s okay to not be okay.  It’s okay to not have it all together all the time.  It’s okay to give yourself a break from trying to do it all and take care of everyone around you.

I can sit and play music all afternoon, and smile, and laugh and try to find something stupid to say to help YOU smile and laugh, and not feel not so sad and scared and worried. To take your mind off the events of the world.  But please know that I’m feeling it with you, and standing with you and even having a good ole ugly cry in the car with you.

Categorised in: Afternoons

This post was written by Carrie Buchanan